And so daddy is gone...

Well.. Maddog is in Perth, the kids are fine and so am I.. Just a little bored, with no one to bully or boss around.. Kaitlyn is really good, if you ask her to do something, when she finally pulls herself out of what she is doing and if you explain to her why you want her to do it, she would do it for you. BUT BamBam, (I think it's an age thing) he would just tell you straight out, "NO!"

Keira is now 3 months old.. time is sure just flying pass like a jet plane, she has been holding her head up by herself for 3 weeks now, and she loves to stand, refuses to sit down until her legs collapse.

I don't know if I have mentioned it b4... but a big fat THANK YOU to all of you for being here supporting me. It's amazing what a few words on the big www can do! :)

Fuzzy Little Kiwi..

Who would have thought that a little green fruit with fuzzy brown skin would help your heart big time?

Kiwifruit appear to put the kibosh on artery-clogging plaques in two ways: They help lower triglyceride levels, and they reduce platelet clumping. The platelet effect could be particularly good for your ticker: Although platelets aid in blood clotting, when these cells stick together too much, it could set the stage for a heart attack or stroke.

You may be surprised to learn a kiwi has more vitamin C than an orange, beats bananas for potassium, and is chock-full of vitamin E and magnesium.

Eating 5 servings of fruit a day can make your RealAge 1.4 years younger.

So ladies!!! Go out and get your KIWIssss!!! :)

Wow.. 9 weeks tomorrow..

Well.. little Keira is going to be 9 weeks tomorrow.. she is now, I think, getting use to the big wide world, as she screams a little less these days. :p None of my other kids screams like she does when they were her age. Maybe she feels mummy's PPD hormones going all over the place and is helping mummy scream to release some of the frustration?? :p

Yup, you heard right, I've got PPD(Post-Natal Depression). Mild case.. I hope! (After 3 kids and 1 miscarriage, I think I'm entitled to experience it just once! hehehe... ) I do have days when everything that comes into my mind is just very negative and I totally cannot shake it at all. That explains probably why I reacted the way I did in the last post! :p BUT I still believe that my reaction is justified! :p But anyhow, after many days of silence treatment and cold shoulder, Maddog has 'decided' to stay back a while longer. He is now leaving on the 14th of Aug.

My parents are now both in New Zealand, mum left 4 days ago. So we have the whole big house to ourselves and that also means that I'm back to work, 10am-8pm. I am definitely not looking forward to when Maddog leaves. I won't have a mad-dog to send on the kids when they are misbehaving, as they are not afraid of me. Plus I won't have a driver to send and pick the kids up from school. I will pretty much have 40 days of 3 kids, a 96 year old grandmother, a big house and a full time job to take care of all by my little self. As my parents will only be back here in Malaysia on the 20th Sept.

I am hoping to join Maddog in Perth on the 27th of Sept, got a wedding to attend on the 4th Oct. But still it all depends on how much can Maddog save b4 we get there as we will be starting off from 0. (well not really 0, but -10k on credit card)

Got to feed the little one.. update later!

One from Jake...

Sorry, I was an arse the other night, and I've been thinking that I WAS the only twit to say that stuff. So clearly I was trying to convince myself that it wasn't sexual - I had the issue, no one else. I totally agree with Dee - I'm not very good at assuring her.

I fully expect to get a load of abuse from all the girls out there, and frankly, rightly so. Sorry baby.

Plain Hormones or Just the Husband?

Well.. Jake is leaving for Perth in 2 weeks and I really don't think I would be able to handle the long distance relationship thing, especially with him, my 3 kids and my hormones.

A new friend of ours is heading to Perth too, a month after he gets there. 2 weeks ago, he said that if I was uncomfortable with him seeing her while I'm not there, he won't. Now he is 'telling' me that I should trust him and that what would be the big deal if he was to have lunch with her. How can he expect me to trust him when he hasn't done anything to proof it?

And it doesn't help when just the other night, at a 'Mid-summer's Beach BBQ' some ladies in their 40's and this friend of ours(28) decided to have go for a skinny dip, all the other men were not staring at the ladies changing, only he was, and he kept telling the other men that he has never skinny dipped, and that he really wanted to. (but of coz the wife can't and so he is not allowed and not like there were any other men in the water!!) He kept telling the little kids and the other men that it's totally not a sexual thing.. (kids don't care nor did the other men) .. i think he said it at least 10 times while standing there staring.. so.. hm.. who was he trying to convince?? And saying things like Asian girls are no fun, meaning me, and that when he gets to OZland, the wife won't be there to stop him having fun. While I was sitting right there, listening to everything. WHAT a load of assurance he is giving me!

Coming up to 6 Weeks!

Wow.. we are nearly up at 6 weeks.. time seems to be on a jet plane passing me by, loud, but fast.
Breastfeeding is getting easier, Thank Goodness! :) I've always told myself that it will be better after 3 weeks.. and sure enough the pain went away A DAY after 3 weeks :p (Hubby has been ready 'The Law of Attraction', so I don't know if it is all in my mind or it really does go away after 3 weeks, know what I mean?) Anyway.. We were planning to go to KL on the 16th June, but I still had a little problem with the breast producing enough milk or know when to produce it, so I was pretty nervous about going, but in the end we decided to go anyway, and sure enough there wasn't any problems at all with the 'supply'. And that was 1 DAY after 5 weeks... :) So for all your ladies out there that are struggling or looking at breastfeeding, IT DOES GET BETTER, even when it doesn't seem like it at that time! :p

Well.. we've got all the details of what Visa we have to apply for to get to OZLAND. YUP, we are leaving for OZLAND. Hubby is leaving on the 10th July, a day after his birthday. (He says he will be updating his blog more often with his 'what-abouts'.)

We will heading to PERTH! That is where to $$$ is at the moment, with the mining, oil and gas. We've been given a chance by some friends of ours to try and get into the oil and gas sector, so we are going to grab the opportunity and give it a try. Some of these guys are earning like 1270 USD a day! (I'm like THANK YOU VERY MUCH! Just Show Me the MONEY!! ehehehe) But then, they do have 15 years of experience. :) Lets see, Jake is 32 now, 32 + 15 = 47 ... still do-able :p

Well he will be first, to find a job, secure the job, save up some money, buy a car and look for a place to rent. He has to get all that done first before the kids and I head over, which should be around Sept. We might leave Kaitlyn here with my parents till we have sorted out her school for next year, since we are planning to come back for Christmas, as my cousin is getting married on Boxing Day. So.. one less return ticket to buy just for now. And by the time we go back to OZLAND after Christmas AirAsia will be up and flying :)

Jake and I have always had some trust issues going, so the 2 months separation is going to be interesting, and fun. So look out for lots of Venting and Ranting! :p

SH*T Happens!????

Well... we were back at the hospital again yesterday! Little Missy Poo-Poo decided not to poo-poo this time! 2 whole week!! We were getting pretty worried! Luckily, there is this really nice Paediatrician that we met when we first came to the hospital with Keira not wanting to P.U. We have been keeping in touch with her and keeping her up to date with what's going on with Keira too. So she told us to come in to see her yesterday as it's been 2 weeks. She asked if we wanted her to admit her into the ward again. I'm like NO~~~ We finally all came to the conclusion that she is purging, just really clear and watery, instead of the 'normal' poo-poo! But when we got home in the afternoon, she did 2 huge big 'normal' stinky poo-poo, one after the other. AIYO~~~ Luckily, we didn't admit her! or myself! hehehe

So, while we were there we started talking about the NICU, coz that's where we met and where she worked. There was this girl that I met while I was there, that had her baby at 24wks gestation, and the baby was 690 grams at birth, after a month of being in the NICU, she is now 1.3kg, Doc told us that they normally release the babies that small at around 1.9kg. So I asked if they had babies that small, often. Was told they have just released a baby 2 days ago at 1.9kg, born 1.3kg at birth, by a small mum, literally and physically. The mummy was 12 years old!! ????!!!! AND.. that's not the worst of it! The husband of the 12 year old is a 29 year old man!!! SH*T happens??!!! WTF??? (NB. Jacob here - I was horrified to hear this, and that 29 year old should be arrested for paedophilia.)

And while I was pregnant and going for the local clinic/mid-wives check-ups, they were telling me that they have had lots of foreign ladies (Viet, Indon, Thai..etc) that are married to local men, that are tested HIV positive and still go on to have babies... and I was relating this to Doc, and she told us yes, but the babies will only live to a MAX age of 4. SH*T happens??!!! WTF???

Then she told us that a 6 year old was admitted with having drunk 'Clorox', her mum wasn't any much better, she has multiple cuts on her wrist. BUT they were both released 2 days later!!! SH*T happens??!! WTF??? The family didn't wanna treat the real problem, which was mum being suicidal and needing to go on meds. But it's God's gift right?

So is a brain.

So relieve that she relieved!

WHAT A WEEK!! After 11 hours of being in this world, we took little Keira home... ONLY to take her back to the Doctors the next day as she hasn't peed in more than 24 hours! So she was admitted into our little local Manjung hospital 34 hours into her life, with a case of NPU (Not Passing Urine). They wanted to keep an eye on her, and if need to, they would put a catheter in to help her relieve herself, which we were hoping to avoid..... So.. we waited and waited, and waited. The Peads reckon that she is probably not taking in enough BM to feel up her bladder, as she was a little jaundices too.. so was too tired and sleepy to suckle on the breast.

So by 8 pm, they took out the catheter to try and help her, as it's been more than 40 hours! And just as they were going to do it.. she relieved herself, and mummy. BUT still they kept us over night in the hospital to observe her. I was put in a little room, right in between the feeding room and the reception area, on a little fold out bed, AND no visitors are allowed. Daddies have to leave by 7:30 pm.. CRAZY, I tell you.. and it was only 40 hours ago that I just gave birth, was pretty sore and tired.. The lights were always on,nurses chattering, and had mothers waking pass the end of my bed every 2 hours to feed their babies, and not to forget the other babies crying coz they were under the photo-therapy. I think I got a total of maybe 5 hours of sleep since giving birth!

The next day came around and.. she still hasn't peed since.. the peads wanted to see her pee at least twice b4 discharging her from the hospital... by the time 8 pm rolled around, only 1 little pee.... Mummy was worried, panicking, tired, sore, engorged, and blood pressure was getting pretty high.. Was just totally zoning out by then.. I kinda knew ppl were talking to me, but it sounded like it was coming from the next room kinda thing. It was a pretty weird feeling I tell you. So I had to do it... I had to leave the baby at the hospital and go home, as they won't allow me to take the baby home.. by the time we got home it was about 10:30pm. My breast were so engorged it was rock hard and couldn't express it out at all... THE PAIN! Thank God for cabbage!! That really really helped!! but still had to wake up every 2 hours to express, but still got more sleep then the last 62 hours!

We got back to the hospital the next day and was told that she could have UTI... Good News was... We could take her home, only if we allow them to put the catheter in to get a fresh sample of her urine... so.. after all that avoiding of the catheter, she still had to have it... BUT she was brave and strong, not a peep out of her when they did the procedure.

AND now.. she pees.... a lot!! :) But for 3 days there, she was constipated... think it was all that formula that they feed her while she was at the hospital.. How can they be promoting BF while they provide formula for top up.. It was kinda hard getting her back onto the breast after they spoon feed her... so my breast are sore and still getting use to the pain... She does had a very, very small mouth!!!